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Things that just kill me

In a bad way: taking the Hatchling to the Dr.’s office for her 18 month checkup and watching her struggle, so hard, to keep it together during the appointment. And then when she got too scared and broke down, watching her try so hard to get her brave face back. It just KILLS me.

In a good way: Mr. Squab bringing home a beautiful bouquet of roses and lilies for me after I was a total bitch to him on the phone about how much I hate having to take the Hatchling to her checkups. The flowers smell really good. JUST LIKE MY LOVE FOR MR. SQUAB.

Zzzzzzz

Last night, I slept for nearly 11 hours. Please keep your fingers crossed that this is the start of a new pattern.

Can we go every day?

So our ECFE class? Is AWESOME. First, it’s in this beautiful school which is in a beautiful area of town – the school was built about 5 years ago but you walk in and it feels like it’s been built to last: stone walls, high ceilings, spacious classrooms and lots of windows. The ECFE classroom was like the Hatchling’s dream come true. Soooooo many toys and things to climb on and things to push around and cubby holes and water tables and – the Hatchling’s favorite of all – an old plastic bottle with wooden clothespins in it. Oh, joy! There were about 10 other kids there, most with moms but a few with moms and dads, which is cool. The Hatchling was TOTALLY in her element. Interacting with loads of other kids? Check. Charming the pants off the other parents and teachers? Check. Freaking out the other parents with her off-the-charts height and crazy number of teeth? Check. (“How many teeth does she have?” several parents asked. “All except her 2-year molars,” I replied. “Wowwwww,” they breathed.) When it came time to sit in a circle with the other parents and kids and sing songs together, little miss always-on-the-go actually sat in my lap and grinned her little head off the whole time. When it was time for the parents to sit together while the kids played under the supervision of the aides, the teacher warned us that most of the kids would probably want to stay closer by for the first couple of sessions. Before the warning was even out of her mouth, the Hatchling was over on the other side of the room, showing one of the aides her mad skillz-of-an-artist on the magnetic drawing board. She played catch with one of the dads, stole surreptitious teddy grahams from several of the kids, and said huge enthusiastic “HI’s” to everyone she encountered. In short, she had a blast. And since all the parents seem like nice, interesting people, I had a pretty good time, too. It will be really great to meet with this group once a week, if for no other reason than to allay my COMPLETELY IRRATIONAL AND INSANE anxieties about the Hatchling’s developmental milestones. Because, look! It’s a whole room of kids her age or thereabouts, and hey – they all throw tantrums! And none of them are really talking yet! And most of them don’t sleep as well as she does! And none of them are as cute!

Yep: reaffirming my child’s inherent awesomeness. THAT’S what it’s all about. (Where’s my eye-rolling emoticon?)

Whoo.

So. I’m officially 36 years old. So far it seems a lot like 35, I’ll be honest. On the day itself (Thursday), Mr. Squab and I went out on a FABULOUS date. First we went to Pierre’s Bistro in southwest Minneapolis. OMFG, do they ever make some good food. Like, lean your head against the wall and take a moment to recover kind of good. We had artichokes au gratin to start, all buttery and cheesy and garlicky over crusty bread. Then I had a fillet of salmon encrusted with kalamata olives, served over a bed of wilted spinach with tomato compote. Christ, my heart is beating faster just THINKING about it. Then we finished with the triple cremes brulees sampler: vanilla, chocolate, and espresso creme brulee. Oh, with wine and coffee at the appropriate intervals. I mean, I’m sure it cost about what we spend on a week’s groceries and was probably a couple of days’ worth of calories and fat, but FUCK IT. It was my birthday, and lord, it was worth it.

Then we went to the movie theatre and saw The Bourne Ultimatum, which was the most satisfying movie I’ve seen all summer. What could be better after an orgasmic meal than watching Matt Damon run his ass off all over Europe and NYC? Nothing, that’s what. Mighty good times.

So a lovely birthday, followed by an equally lovely family celebration on Saturday, at which I got, among other presents, the first DVD of Sesame Street Old School, and the second season of The Muppet Show. For me. The Hatchling can watch them, too, I guess, if she’s good. Because what’s the point of entering the second half of your fourth decade if you can’t relive the joyous TV experiences of your first?

Busy-ness

My normal weekly schedule:
Hang out with the Hatchling, get out of the house in the afternoons to run errands or go to the park, maybe one or two playdates with friends.

This week:
Mon-Wed: Mini-Reunion with 7 college girlfriends and their families (collectively, 13 kids under the age of 9. Oy.)

Thurs: Lunch with glamorous blog-friend. Coffee with glamorous pre-blog friend. Oh, and it’s my birthday, so dinner and a movie with Mr. Squab, sans bebe. W00t!

Fri: Much beloved mother-in-law coming for the weekend. Attempt to create some semblance of order in the house.

And that’s not even including the weekend. Just call me Madame Butterfly. Social Butterfly, that is.

(Oh yeah – which is all to say, posting may be light this week.)

Found.

The prodigal cat has returned. Apparently he DID get out of the house, probably when the plumber left late yesterday afternoon (did I mention the sewage backups we’ve been having? no? well, add that to the mix), and Mr. Squab found him outside near the neighbor’s deck. He seems to be just fine, his usual old complaining, grumpy self. Lord have MERCY I’m glad he’s home. The cat gods would’ve cursed me for sure if I’d lost him.

Tomorrow’s mission: getting some damn collars for both cats. (And yes, I know I’m a total asshole for not having done this long ago.)

Thanks everyone for the offers of help and good thoughts.

Shaken, but OK

Just wanted to post a short message to let everyone know that we weren’t on the I-35W bridge last night, though it’s a route we’ve taken many, many times. We’re all present and accounted for in the Squab family. Still shaken by the gruesome pictures of the bridge carnage, though. It seems crazy that a bridge can just collapse like that. I hope none of my readers were personally affected. Bless the rescue and recovery workers. It’s more than I could do.

Two Small Things

First: I totally love you guys for being so supportive as I put up post after post bitching about my progress. You have no idea how much it helps.

Second: (Drumroll please …)

I.

AM.

DONE.

Okay, I’m not really *completely* done: my conclusion is all of about 5 pages now, so that will need massive expansion, and I have a ton of revisions to do on every chapter. But I’m officially done with a solid draft of THE ENTIRE THING. Jesus fucking CHRIST it took me a long time to get here. It would be embarrassing if I weren’t so damn happy to be at this point.

Right. I’m going home, where I will get Mr. Squab to make me a strong beverage of the alcoholic type. Later, bitchez.

Phtthhhhbbbbbbbt

You know how some days you kind of just hate everything you’re writing? Like, all your turns of phrase sound clunky, and none of your thoughts have any flow or coherence?

I’m having one of those days. Must. Plow. Through. I hope to god this stuff looks better when I reread it this weekend. Ugh.

Summonabatching Icehole

God DAMN it, I hate writing conclusions. They motherfucking SUCK ASS.

That is all.